Anxiety strikes!

I'm five months pregnant with my first baby and that terrifies me. I keep thinking something is going to go wrong because nothing is perfect. My life has always been difficult and I know with a baby it will be harder but it's the only really good thing in my life and I want it more than anything. I keep reading or even seeing women who have had babies with so many problems and my newest fear is trisomy 18. It's scary to think this could happen. I know I am healthy and all of my ultrasounds have looked great and the heartbeat has been perfect but I can't stop thinking about defects.
I have always been a hypochondriac and now I have another life to worry about. I worry more about my unborn baby lately than I do about myself. I guess that's natural but it's also incredibly stressful and I know no one wants to hear a list of my fears every day. I know I need to think optimistic and realize I am otherwise a healthy individual but I always have the "what if" thought in the back of my mind. I seriously could not handle someone telling me something is wrong with my baby.

I had blood taken about a week ago at my OB appointment and they have yet to call me to tell me if everything is OK which makes me more concerned. It makes me think they're waiting until my next appointment to give me the bad news. I hate this helpless feeling. I seriously already feel like something is wrong and if it is, then it's all my fault. I just want everything to be OK. I know that's all any mother wants but I genuinely mean it. I wish it was February already and I knew everything was alright.

Happy Birthday to me!

I am 18 weeks pregnant today exactly and felt the baby move for the first time. It is also my 24th birthday. What a great birthday gift!

I had a pretty relaxing birthday. I had some pizza and my Mom bought me a cake.

24... sigh. I'm getting up there I guess.

Holy Earthquake!

HOLY EARTHQUAKE BATMAN!

We totally just had an earthquake. An earthquake in Virginia? Seriously?

The news said the epicenter was in Mineral, VA which is not far and the magnitude was 5.8. Crazy!

Alex moves in

Today Alex moved in. His parent have been so ridiculous about him coming over every weekend to see me so they asked him to leave. He willingly left of course because he didn't really want to be there anyways. They were basically trying to make him choose me or them.

I went with him to get his stuff and his Mom had apparently taken a day off from work so she could confront him when he came. I guess she wasn't expecting me to be there because she came running out of the house, yelling at me and then threw his pills at me. She basically implied that he couldn't make it without them because he's bi-polar. They asked him to leave and then rip me a new one.

Now he's with me and it's so new. I was so used to seeing him every weekend and now I get to see him every day. I guess it works out since I'm pregnant and we wanted to get married in the fall.

On a happier note my doctor's office called and said my blood work looked fine from my First Trimester Screen so my risk for having a baby with Down Syndrome is low.

First Trimester Screen

Today I had my First Trimester Screen for Down Syndrome. It wasn't too bad. I waited in a waiting room for what seemed to be forever and then was called back by the rudest ultrasound tech ever! She acted like she hated her job and didn't seem to even care about what she was doing. The printout she gave us of the baby was so horrible it didn't even look like a baby. It looked more like an acorn sitting on a rock. I was so disappointed. After the ultrasound I went to the lab and had some blood drawn so they could check all of my levels out. I'll find out in a couple of weeks the result but everything seemed to look good.

Introducing Baby Headley

Well, today was the day! [: I went to my official OB appointment and had my first ultrasound. Everything looked fine and the baby looked as if he or she were dancing around and even waving. It looks like it may have Alex's head. I have another appointment on August 9th for the First Trimester Screen.

Introducing Baby Headley:

First OB visit

I had my first OB appointment today and all I can say is, it's definitely not worth a blog post as bad as that sounds. I have waited almost a month just to go in for less than 20 minutes for them to get some information about myself and Alex, take some blood and set up my first ultrasound with Dr. Young in two weeks. Yes, TWO not ONE but TWO weeks. I am so disappointed. I was so excited and now I have to wait AGAIN!

Until next time...